Feels Real

Ten of Wands
The Ten of Wands card suggests that my power today lies in conscience. He ain't heavy, he's my brother. I own responsibility for the baggage I have chosen to carry but I am ready to lay the weight of a burden or secret I have been hiding behind where it belongs in order to reconcile my conscience. Do I want to be right or alone? I am empowered by blind faith in fulfilling my purpose or greater good to just do it, and I transform through in passion or direction in principle.

Just thinking.........

Blues

So, I've really been into some really heavy, olde time- I mean olde time Delta Blues. It just seems kinda fitting for my life right now. In general I am a very happy person but it seems the trials and tribulations of life are always there. Hard times, love gone wrong,heart-ache,trying to make it and feeling lonely, drinkin too much, that's all the stuff a good blues song is made of.

I don't know, just seemed like an interesting card for the day........

Moon
The Moon card suggests that my alter ego is the Magnetic One, whose superpower lies in my innate ability for reflection, and that of turning the tide. Today I feel like a natural woman. I am a goddess that reflects the mystique and magnetism of women, rising above all boundaries. 'This too shall pass.' Shining brightly, I will overcome empty promises in the dark and dangerous liaisons. Enjoy the thrill of the hunt and the drama when your forces of attraction are at their strongest.

Your Attitude to Relationships as Shaped by Your Birth Star or Nakshatra Sarvana

You like to be in amicable relationships and maintain socially approved behavior at all times. You may appear calculating, but it may not be because of selfish motivations. Rather, you may be just trying to maintain control and keeping up appearances when dealing with others. You are stubborn and find it difficult to yield to the pressure of maintaining relationships. You don't like to give up on any relationship unless it's outlived its usefulness, and once you start to develop a relationship, you make sure that it reaches completion. Others admire your ability to listen, learn and teach them meaningful things. You learn a lot from others about the ways and means of cultivating workable relationships and you do not hesitate to apply the same knowledge with humility for your relationships to flourish. You are respected for living an ethical and moral life, and others believe in what you say.

Your relationships are likely to influence you immensely, as your receptivity gives you the ability to learn from others. Be extremely choosy about the kind of relationships you enter into, as you can easily fall prey to deception and bad advice.You are highly active socially and love living in the public. You have a very businesslike approach to relationships, though your primary objective is to maintain cordiality. You are clever in conversation and skilled at putting others at ease quickly. You love to talk endlessly and may spend a lot of time on telephone. You need to be aware of your tendencies to be excessively generous in your efforts to preserve the order in relationships, which may lead to debts and poverty. Your extreme ethical stands and treating morality above compassion can lead to friction. Children may not like to listen to your moral lectures and justification if it hinders their individuality, leading to possible problems. However, through your faith in life and existence, you can overcome most of your difficulties. You need to listen to your inner voice and cultivate intuition w unselfish efforts to maintain order and adherence to truth.

Whats goin on

Good stuff:
1.Well, I volunteered for a position as an usher for 4 broadway shows in exchange for a free pass to each show.Pretty cool, I'm excited about it. The first show is Feb.11th. It's the Billy Joel musical Movin Out
2.I got a tutor for Algebra, thats good.
3. I filed my taxes and I don't owe a dime plus will be getting enough to catch up a little on bills, blah
4. I am loved.

Bad stuff:
1. My parents are being assholes to my sister and I just wish they would let off a little and let her make her own choices. They have become so materialistic it makes me sick, they are hoarders and it's embarrassing. Plus, I wish my Mom was more truthful about her feelings.
2. I feel like I am always hurting people I care about.
3. I got a D on my Psychology test but its my own fault because I didnt study. I'll try harder next time.

Here comes the sun

My sweetie keeps saying the future's so bright, we gotta wear "chades".I am glad he's so happy with his new job. Weve been in the middle of an ice storm and all he could think about was getting to the job to finish where they left off at. Whadda ya crazy? lol
All I can think about is my disgustingly nauseous tummy and all the homework I havent done,I've been sick since I woke up yesterday, UGH, not a good start.